I went to get gas on Wednesday and my credit card was declined. At first I thought it was the particular gas station, so I drove to another. "Please see cashier" flashed on the screen. The other place said "Please try another card".
There is no other card to try. Luckily I carry around a stash of emergency cash. Luckily this happened when I was alone at a gas pump and not the evening before when I had $100 worth of groceries on the conveyor belt at the check out line.
I am not above being poor, but I, well, I just would never want to have to go through that.
I am not sure the situation is fixed. I never heard from A one way or the other. I know that's a burden for him, but a little communication would be nice. I don't know about the business. He continues to go and make things, but I think he's surviving on borrowed time at best.
I want to just move on or dive in or jump off or whatever metaphor you can envision for getting past all of this!
If we end up bankrupt, let's do it. If we divorce, let's do it. If we reconcile, let's do it.
I keep trying hard to just BE in the moment but I'm even finding it hard as I type this blog.
On an up note, I received an email yesterday morning from my dad that was amazing. He wrote to say he was sending me money to help with Christmas. I was so happy. What was even more special were the things that he said in it.
I think I'll share it, it's too good not to. When I read it, I do believe in the magic of Christmas.