Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Finding Forty, Day 48; Counting

Today was just a day. Nothing grand, nothing horrible. I am thankful for this day, though.

The good thing is that I lived well. I worked, spent time with my family, did chores, even had a bit of me time. I ate well and feel healthy. All things that will help me sleep better tonight.

The bad (there is probably a better adjective for it) thing is that I thought of S a great deal today, really, desperately wanted to call him and hear his voice. I'm trying hard to focus on A, so I don't want thoughts of S creeping in. It's been 33 days since we last talked. Will I count forever? I still cannot fathom never hearing his voice again.

It hit me today that I am loved. Seems so stupid that I could ever forget, but I am loved. Was even loved by S once upon a time and love is always a good thing.

Just wish I didn't miss him like I do.

I have to push him aside.

People are counting on me to.

All this counting...

1 comment:

  1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Count_von_Count